My Noons and Midnights Are for You

#MAHIRUTIME
Mayo hides behind the screen as "Mahiru"—but how long can he hide his true self?

Compared to his radiant online alter ego—Mahiru, a bubbly VTuber beloved by thousands of fans—the real Mayo is gloomy, shy and plagued by self-doubt. And the more love Mahiru receives, the more Mayo feels the sting of isolation. Even Mr. Ogino—Mayo's affectionate, doting manager—seems to care more for the persona, not the real Mayo behind the mask.

So even when Mr. Ogino tells him, “I love you,” how could Mayo ever believe his words...?

Yet Mr. Ogino might see more than Mayo realizes. Sensing Mayo's secret longing and unable to resist, Mr. Ogino utters the words that will change their relationship forever:
“In that case... shall I bully you instead?”

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CWs: explicit sexual content, dubious consent, alcohol use, kink, depression, mild suicidal ideation, self-harm

A 2025 Chill Chill Award winner!

While his V-tuber persona, Mahiru, is bright and cheerful on screen, the real Mayo is gloomy and unconfident. Adored by his audience as Mahiru, he wishes he were confident enough to be seen and loved as his real self. Even his manager, Ogino, seems to see him more as Mahiru than Mayo sometimes... and when Ogino takes their relationship to a new level, Mayo worries that it's only because Ogino values "Mahiru" and wants him to continue on as his character.

Over the course of their sexual relationship, Mayo doubts Ogino's sincerity, but Ogino finally admits that he's always admired Mayo for who he really is. A sexy, sado-maso kink romance, incorporating the complexity of online persona and identity.

NOTE: This book contains mature content and is intended for readers 18 years of age and over.