Is This the Kind of Love I Want?
Age: 📚 18+ | 2 Volumes (Complete) | Paperback & eBook | Creator: Kouki
Is This the Kind of Love I Want? is a mature, slow-burn Boys Love romance from creator Kouki that asks the questions we're often afraid to voice: What does love look like when you're still figuring yourself out? And how do you trust someone else's feelings when you can barely understand your own? Published under TOKYOPOP's LoveLove imprint, this 18+ series delivers emotional complexity alongside intimate heat.
Uta has recently come out as gay. Ryo, by all appearances, is straight. Yet somehow, these two have been living together for a year and a half—sharing meals, sharing space, and sharing a strange domestic intimacy that looks a lot like a relationship... except it isn't. Not officially. They fought early on. They even slept together once. But now? They've settled into a quiet routine that feels more like a middle-aged married couple than two young men figuring out their lives.
With their lease renewal approaching, Uta is forced to confront an uncomfortable question: Why would a gay man and a straight man who aren't dating—who haven't even kissed in almost a year—continue living like a couple? It doesn't make sense. And yet, walking away feels impossible.
Everything changes when Ryo crosses a line neither expected. In a moment of vulnerability, Ryo loses his virginity to Uta—and in that moment, something shifts. Ryo begins to understand what it means to love someone. But Uta, trapped in his own insecurities and desperate to be "normal," can't fathom why a straight man would let himself be used this way. As Ryo tries desperately to prove his feelings are real, Uta remains frustratingly, heartbreakingly oblivious.
Is This the Kind of Love I Want? is a beautifully frustrating romance about two people learning to see each other clearly—and themselves.
Perfect for readers who love: Boys Love, roommates-to-lovers, slow-burn romance, identity exploration, emotional miscommunication, intimate relationship drama.
